Monday, September 24, 2018

Tergar Asia 8 Days Retreat in Thailand (2018) - 2

【2018泰國八日禪明就仁波切 ・第二日開示摘要】
■只是放鬆vs.開放的覺知
有多少人沒上過「開心禪」,是以「每天禪修超過五年」的資格,來參加「解脫道」課程?
那你可能不知道什麼是「開放的覺知」,我要先說一下,因為這對心性教法很重要。
開放的覺知,就是讓你的心處於原本的狀態(Be as it is)。

我們來做兩個練習,一個是「只是放鬆」,一個是「開放的覺知」:

首先,是「就這樣待著」,這不是「開放的覺知」哦,只是放鬆。
打個比方,那就像我們做完運動,那種驟然放鬆的感覺。
或者是上了一天班,還要擠巴士回家,好不容易回到家,呼,往沙發上一坐,終於放輕鬆了。
或者像你們做功課,每次做一小時,覺得好久啊,叮!聽到計時鐘響起來,時間終於到了,覺得好輕鬆啊。
這時終於感受到禪修典籍裡所說的:「放下禪修,比禪修還輕鬆」。

接著我們來練習這種「只是放鬆」
兩手這樣交握著,緊緊握著。
深吸一口氣,然後屏住呼吸一會兒。
呼,手放開,自然呼吸,
放鬆,這樣休息幾秒,
心是怎樣就怎樣的和它待在一起。
不用禪修,多好啊。

再練習一次。
緊握雙手,深呼吸,屏住氣,停一會兒。
放手,自然呼吸。

怎麼樣,覺得很放鬆?有多少人覺得「這比禪修更放鬆」?我也這樣覺得。

接下來第二種練習,是「開放的覺知」,現在要教大家了。

這裡有個大秘密,是什麼?那就是我「已經」教完「開放覺知」了。

剛才「只是放鬆」就是「開放覺知」,這就是我們常說的「無修,就是最好的禪修」

心性教法裡常說:「無散,無修,無造作」。
只要不丟失,就不需要刻意禪修;不散亂,也不禪修。
接著是第三句「無造作」心是怎樣就怎樣的跟它在一起,心清明也可以、不清明也可以,有念頭也可以、沒念頭也可以,只是和它待在一起。

■內在的電視

開心禪很重要的部分,是如何去看情緒和念頭
如果你沒參加過開心禪,但有超過五年以上的禪修經驗,通常你會用觀呼吸或觀佛像的方法,當我們觀呼吸時,心知道自己在吸氣、呼氣,專注在呼吸上;
看念頭就像觀呼吸一樣,把心專注在念頭上,看看起了什麼念頭,比如「有披薩」、「沒披薩」、「我愛披薩」、「我不愛披薩」等等,現在你們多少人有念頭?
大家都舉手了,「知道自己有念頭」就是念頭禪修。

保持禪修坐姿,
把心安住在開放覺知。
現在,就像觀呼吸那樣,
請看著你的念頭。

怎麼樣?有多少人一看念頭,念頭就消失了,出現了一個空隙?
有多少人看得見念頭?看得見、看不見都一樣,禪修的精華是覺知
看不見就有個空隙,那就是開放的覺知。
那很好,不用特別找念頭,沒有念頭,就跟「沒有念頭」在一起。這個經驗就像等巴士,沒有巴士就沒有巴士,你看念頭但沒念頭,很好,這時你沒念頭但也沒忘失。

有些人看念頭、也看見念頭了,那也很好,就像看電視、電影一樣,你看著一個360度大螢幕,而且是3D的,當你看著電影,你就不在電影裡了,你看著情緒念頭,你就不在情緒念頭裡了,這就像我們以前說過很多次的「看得見河流,你已經不在河流裡了」。雖然你不在河流中,但可以讓河繼續流,只要看著,不必阻擋它們發生。

現在情緒和念頭,就成了覺知、專注、正念的對境,所以不需要阻擋它們。
我稱它們是「內在的電視」,還是免費的,有個大螢幕,而且是3D的,小偷也偷不走你內在的電視──只不過有個小問題,一再重播的都是老掉牙的舊片,一播再播,「要吃披薩」,「不吃披薩」,「醫生告訴我別吃披薩」……但把覺知帶進來之後,這樣無聊的節目即使一看再看,結果卻是大不相同。

我們要再做練習。這裡最重要的是覺知,看得見念頭、看不見念頭都沒關係,重點是覺知
2019.09.10
https://www.facebook.com/TergarAsia/posts/647848932277239
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■Just relax versus Open awareness
How many of you have never attended the Joy of Living course, but you have fulfilled the requirement for joining the Path of Liberation retreat by having a daily meditation practice for a minimum of five years?
 As such, you may not have heard of "open awareness", which I am going to explain to you now because this is a very important practice for receiving the nature of mind teachings.
Open awareness is allowing your mind to "be as it is".
Let's try two practices. One is "just relax" and the other one is " open awareness".
First, you allow yourself to be "just as it is". Please note this is not the "open awareness" meditation, and so you just relax.
Let me give you some examples. 
The first one is, it is that kind of deep relaxation you feel just after physical exercise. 
Another one is "You've worked for a long hard day, and you have to squeeze into a jam-packed bus in order to go home. Eventually when you reach home, you lie onto the sofa and at last, you can finally relax."
The third example is "You need to complete your one-hour meditation homework. It lasts so long... Ding! When you hear the bell rings, you know the practice is finally over and you feel so relaxed! Now you can really taste the meaning of a teaching in the classical meditation doctrine "Letting go of the meditation is more relaxing than the meditation itself."
Now, we shall practice "just relax" :
First, interlock your fingers forcefully and tightly together to make a fist. Then inhale deeply and hold your breath for a while.
Exhale, release your hands and breathe naturally. Relax and rest just like this for a few seconds. Just let your mind be as it is and be with it. You don't have to meditate. How nice!
Let's practice this one more time. Interlock your fingers tightly together, then inhale deeply and hold your breath for a while.
Release your hands, then breathe naturally.
How was it? Do you feel very relaxed? How many of you feel that this is more relaxing than meditation? I feel the same way too!
Next, let's practice "open awareness", which I am going to teach you now.
Actually, there is a big secret here. What is the big secret? 
It is "I've already taught you open awareness!" 
The "just relax" we did earlier is the "open awareness". 
This is what we have always said, that "Non meditation is the best meditation."
In the nature of mind teaching, it always says "Not lost, not meditating, and uncontrived." 
If you are not lost, then you don't need to meditate - Non distracted and non meditation. 
The third point is "uncontrived". 
Whatever the state of your mind, just be with that state - clarity is okay, non-clarity is okay; having thoughts is okay, not having thoughts is also okay. Just be with your mind.

■Inner Television
A very important part of the Joy of Living course is to learn how to watch thoughts and emotions. 
If you have not attended the Joy of Living course, but you have a meditation practice for over five years, then most likely you practice meditation by watching your breath or visualizing a buddha statue. 
When we watch our breath, our mind knows we are breathing in, breathing out, and we place our focus on the breath. 
Watching your thoughts is similar to watching your breath - allow your mind to focus on your thoughts, and watch what thoughts have arisen. 
For example, "pizza" , "no pizza", "I love pizza", "I don't love pizza"...etc. Now, how many of you have thoughts? All of you have raised your hands.
 "To know you have thoughts" - that is the meditation on thoughts.
Keep your meditation posture, and rest your mind in open awareness. Just like watching your breath, now watch your thoughts.
How was it? How many of you experienced that as soon as you tried to watch your thoughts, your thoughts disappeared and you noticed there was a gap? How many of you could watch your thoughts?
Whether you can watch your thoughts or not, it is the same. 
The essence of meditation is awareness. When you cannot see any thoughts and there is a gap, that is open awareness. That's very good - you don't have to look specially for thoughts.
 If you don't have thoughts, then stay with "no thoughts". 
This experience is similar to waiting for a bus - if there is no bus, there is no bus. 
When you look for thoughts but there are no thoughts, that's very good. That means you don't have thoughts but you are not lost.
For some people, when they look for thoughts and they can see thoughts. That's very good too.
It's like watching the television or a movie - you are looking at a huge, 360-degree screen, and it's 3D too.
When you are watching the movie, you are out of the movie. When you are watching your thoughts or emotions, you are not in the thought or emotion. 
This is the same as what we have talked about many times: "When you can see the river, you are out of the river." You are not in the river, and you can allow the river to continue to flow. You just have to look, so there is no need to block thoughts and emotions from arising.
As such, thoughts and emotions become the support for awareness, concentration and mindfulness. 
Therefore, there is no need to block them. I call this the "inner television", and it's free of charge! 
It has a huge screen, it's 3D, and no thief can steal your inner television from you! 
But, there is a small problem - it plays those old movies over and over, again and again... 
"I want pizza", "I won't eat pizza", "The doctor told me to stop eating pizza"... Yet if you bring in awareness, even though you watch these stale old movies again and again, the result will be totally different.
We have to practice once more. 
The most important thing in this practice is awareness. Whether you can see thoughts or not, it doesn't matter. Awareness is the most important.
(Excerpt from Mingyur Rinpoche's teachings on 10 Sep 2018 during the Tergar Asia 8 Days Retreat)
https://www.facebook.com/TergarAsia/posts/647864238942375

Tergar Asia 8 Days Retreat in Thailand (2018) -1

【2018泰國八日禪明就仁波切 ・首日開示摘要】
■找到平衡,不要太緊也不要太鬆
閉關一開始,除了要「生起好的動機」,還要「找到平衡」
在生起好動機這一點,只要「想要」生起慈心、悲心、菩提心就可以了,其實我們一直和慈悲菩提心在一起,所以不必太擔心動機的質量,懷疑我生起的動機是不是不夠好,「想要」生起好動機是最重要的。

另一個重點是要「找到平衡」,不要太緊也不要太鬆。
今天來到這裡閉關,也許你會想:我好不容易存了錢、求了老闆讓我來,好不容易讓太太或先生答應讓我來,所以「我一定要得到證悟」,即使不證悟也要很靠近證悟,而且決定「從今天開始,我要生起喜樂、清明、無概念的覺受」,你這樣一想,「瘋猴子」就來找你了。

不相信嗎?現在做個練習證明一下,我們來做一個「披薩禪修」:
好,現在脊椎挺直,全身放鬆,
一分鐘內不可以想披薩,
一想到披薩,你的禪修就毀了,
也不可以想「不可以想披薩」,這樣就是在想披薩。
結果如何?叫你不想披薩,你心裡想的就都是披薩。

同樣的道裡,如果你告訴自己不要擔心,不要有情緒,不要有煩惱,不要有痛苦,結果煩惱痛苦反而更多。如果你追求的是喜樂、平靜和無概念,喜樂、平靜和無概念反而會告訴你它們很忙,就消失了。
只要想要有好動機,好動機就在那裡。不要太擔心動機的質量,但也不要放棄,要放下擔心但不要放棄。
所謂「放棄」是這樣(仁波切先緊抓住念珠,手向下一放,念珠就掉到地上);
但「放下」是這樣(仁波切拿念珠的手向上,手指鬆開,念珠還在手裡)
放下是一種智慧,你只要想到放下,就和智慧連結上了,覺知一直在那裡,慈悲也是,智慧也是,你所要做的就是認出來,和它在一起。
從今晚開始,無論上座或下座,要試著不要丟失覺知,但也不要抓太緊。
2018.09.09
https://www.facebook.com/TergarAsia/posts/647146705680795
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Finding balance - not too tight and not too loose
At the beginning of this retreat, apart from having good motivation, finding balance is also very important.
In order to have good motivation, just "wanting" to have loving-kindness, compassion and bodhicitta is already enough. Actually, loving-kindness, compassion and bodhicitta are with us all the time. Therefore, don't worry too much about the quality of your motivation. The most important thing is, you really "want" to have good motivation.
Another important thing is "finding balance", meaning, "not too tight and not too loose."
You might wonder, "In order to attend this retreat, I have to save up my money, beg my boss so that I can take my leave, persuade my husband/wife so that I can come here..." So, "I must get enlightenment!" or "Even though I cannot achieve enlightenment this time, I must be really close to enlightenment!", and "I decided that from now on, I must have bliss, clarity, and be non-conceptual!"
If you think like that, "crazy monkey" will come after you.
You don't believe this? How about we try an exercise to prove it? Let's practice the "pizza meditation" :
First, keep your spine straight, relax the muscles in your body, and then for the next one minute, you can't think of pizza. Even if you think of pizza just once, your meditation will be destroyed! Also, you can't think of "can't think of pizza" - because when you think of "can't think of pizza", that means you are thinking of pizza.
How was it? If I ask you not to think of pizza, your mind is thinking about pizza all the time.
It's the same analogy - if you tell yourself not to worry, not to have emotions, troubles, pain etc... actually they are getting stronger. If you chase after bliss, peace and non-conceptual experience, then bliss, peace and non-conceptual experience will tell you that they are busy and disappear.
The moment you want to have good motivation, good motivation is already there. Don't worry too much about the quality of the motivation, but don't give up either. Let go of your worries, but don't give up.
"Giving up" is like this... (Rinpoche grasped the mala with his hand facing down, then when he loosened his grip, the mala fell onto the floor)
But "letting go" is like this ... (Rinpoche placed the mala in his palm with his hand facing up, the mala stayed in his hand even though he loosened his fingers)
Letting go comes from wisdom. When you think of letting go, actually you are connecting with your wisdom. Awareness is always there, and so is loving-kindness, compassion, and wisdom. All you have to do is to recognize that, and to be with them.
Starting from tonight, whether in your practice session or elsewhere, try not to get lost and maintain awareness, but also, don't be too tight.
(Excerpt from Mingyur Rinpoche's teachings on 9 Sep, 2018 during Tergar Asia 8 Days)
https://www.facebook.com/TergarAsia/posts/647466918982107

Friday, August 17, 2018

The wrathful self appears...

A hungry person is an angry person.
Don't mess with my food🍝 don't change my order when I am already thinking of enjoying it before it arrived...
I will turn into the wrathful self 😈😈😈

Sunday, July 22, 2018

Reminders on Diligence in Practice


我們常說:「我很忙,沒時間修行。這時請記得:輪迴永遠不會給你修行的時間,只有你能給自己時間。」

----堪布卡特仁波切

https://m.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=10154304310784871&id=653819870&set=a.10151238953374871.482574.653819870&source=48

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The practice of dharma is like exercising or carefully following a course of training, which is powerful and deeply significant. For example, if you are in the military, you train every day. In the same way, with the dharma, you have to train your mind daily. Not just to relax but to be able to relate to whatever is happening around you. You integrate your practice with whatever conditions you meet so that you are not carried away by them and do not lose your patience.

17th Karmapa
source: http://kagyuoffice.org/the-29th-kagyu-monlam-day-four/


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I had originally wanted to have a lazy Sunday but scanning thru Facebook posts and after reading above 2 reminders to be diligent on practice,  how can I waste my precious human life! :p
Recalling there is Vajrasattva practice and confirming that my chanting teacher is back from his pilgrim trip to host it, I quickly make my way down. Glad to be there as at end of session, he gave us each a small amount of "nectar" collected from Naropa 's meditation cave? if I hear it correctly!!! 😀
May All who drinks the blessed water be blessed to meet authentic Dharma and be led on path of ultimate happiness too..😊🙇

JOL magazine issue on Panic Attack

💖👍👍👍💖
Excellent articles on letting you know about panic attacks and how to make friends with them...
好棒的理解恐慌与恐慌为友文章等待阅读
http://hk.tergarasia.org/ebook/jol-magazine-2018q2.pdf

Good extracts from the magazine articles with good points on handling panic attacks.
Good for everyone who once in a while may suffer from mild anxiety or nervousness such as going for interviews or facing new events...

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Welcome to come, Welcome to go

My practice slowly transformed my theoretical understanding into experiential understanding. I started to glimpse the real problem: that the mind’s dualistic fixation creates a strong sense of self, and this mistaken perception is the source of my anxiety
On top of that, years of experiencing panic attacks created habitual neural pathways that made it worse. I started to recognise my own mistaken perceptions (the mind’s fixation on permanence, singularity, and independence), and used them to analyse the problems that I encountered in life. For example, when I travel, I have a fear of fainting during the voyage. I addressed this during my meditation practice, and learned how to address the fear: I told myself that just because I had fainted once during a trip did not mean I would do so again.

Each occasion is different. This is a very good method for healing trauma. I had to re-educate myself, training to form new neural pathways by telling myself that the idea that “I will faint on the way” is invalid. I would repeat this to myself three times, then continue meditating without being critical of my own thoughts or feelings. I was also able to use the idea of nonsingularity (multiplicity) to investigate my bodily discomforts. 
My panic attacks usually bring on a chain of bodily reactions. 
In the past, all these feelings and sensations seemed like one huge, solid object. Anxiety made me feel faint, and feeling faint made me anxious, in a vicious cycle. 
Now I can separate these things: the tight feeling in my forehead and face; the pain in my back; feelings of suffocation, fatigue, shortness of breath and chills. I have learned to see each of these as separate elements. I can see that panic isn’t one great massive emotion, but rather is composed of many small parts. When I gradually relax and examine these small parts, handling the problem becomes easier and the bodily discomforts subside.  

The meditation on emptiness is also an excellent practice. One time when panic struck, I used it as my object of meditation and suddenly the feeling of panic became dream-like. When I saw that panic was only the result of causes and conditions, neither permanent nor singular, then “phat!” – like a needle popping a balloon – this once seemingly huge and real thing immediately disappeared and I saw that there was nothing there. Then when panic comes again, there was nothing to fear. Healing doesn’t mean that panic no longer comes, but that it doesn’t matter even if it does come. 
If it recurs, it’s time to practise. 
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Then I realised that my earlier trauma in the metro, and a few other occasions of similar experience, were the reasons for my strong fear of long journeys. It occurred to me that my fear of travel was simply my neurons acting to protect me, based on this memory. They were telling me to be careful, using anxiety as a way to “kindly warn” me each time I left the house. Haha! There was no need to blame the neurons: they were only wishing for me to be happy and free of suffering.
The only problem was, they did not know the way to attain happiness. As I became aware that our bodies and our experiences are all impermanent, I began to understand that the source of my panic was my fixation on having absolute control, including control over my body. 
By the time I finally returned to Hong Kong from Thailand, I was exhausted but my panic had subsided. 

Meditation is a wonderful journey, and the road ahead is still long. I’m very grateful to the teachers and fellow students along the way. “Please practise”, the title of one of Rinpoche’s books, is truly a reminder of our path to happiness. 

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Not an enemy but a friend
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In meditation, we simply become aware of emotions rather than trying to suppress them. The emotions then become objects of awareness, and supports for our meditation practice. In the end, we find that the recognition of awareness is more important in our lives than the emotions themselves. ...

A panic attack is a manifestation of a medical condition called anxiety disorder. Attacks are usually spontaneous, and seem to happen for no reason. During such an attack, a person can feel as if they are going to die; they sense that they are trapped and losing control of their body and thoughts. The medical community has not been able to pinpoint the cause of panic attacks.
Various theories have linked them to genetic predisposition, environmental factors, past experiences or a combination of all three. Such attacks are not life-threatening and are curable with professional help. But if they are not well managed, the patient can develop many other problems arising from them. As an integrative medical doctor and also a meditation student, I encourage my patients to give meditation a try.

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How does awareness meditation work? The explanation is not simple, but some neuroscientists have shown that meditation actually changes the structure of our brain. The point is that meditation can change our perceptions, and perceptions affect our experiences and behaviour. Behaviour in turn reinforces experience, while experience reinforces perception. Therefore, with regular meditation practice, we can free ourselves from our mental traps, and in the long run change the structure of our brains. This is called neuroplasticity – the brain’s capability to change or rewire itself.

I have seen for myself many positive changes among people who practise meditation. Victims of panic attacks have turned their lives around once they learned to help themselves in this way. They became free of their panic, and were able to sleep better and to feel more peaceful and joyful.

I believe that, as a method of practice, meditation goes far beyond helping us to become just “okay”. It can help us reach our full potential as people. 
As Rinpoche puts it in Joyful Wisdom, meditation helps “awaken our capacity to approach every experience – grief, shame, jealousy, frustration, illness and even death – with the innocent perspective we experience when looking for the first time... the moment of pristine awareness that transcends any distinction between experience and the experiencer”.


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Happy reading...
http://hk.tergarasia.org/ebook/jol-magazine-2018q2.pdf

Thursday, July 19, 2018

Dharma Drum Singapore is Back!!!

Finally the new venue for Dharma Drum Singapore is ready for practices...
The new yet familiar environment 😁😂
陌生又熟悉的感觉
如果能能看到圣严师父那和蔼可亲的照片就更棒了😄
Familiarity would be further enhanced if picture of Shengyen Shifu welcoming smile could be seen.😉
好喜欢师父这张亲切的照片,
以前
到达会所时像欢喜迎接大众,
离开会所时像欢喜祝福大众。
南無阿彌陀佛!🙇🙇🙇
希望能在新的会所能再见到!😀

久违了的法鼓山调
也许因是我最初学习念阿弥陀佛共修的地方
No odd tune out :p as all encouraged to chant loudly
the harmonisation with the choir...adds to the familiarity...😊😊😊
觉得this is where my voice belongs😂😅😁😄😊

Hmm I feel the good energy at the new premise... 😊
May All have no obstacles to attend practices!
🙇🙇🙇

Address: 146B Paya Lebar Road #06-01 Ace Building S409017
Opposite MacPherson MRT exit  A

Sunday, June 3, 2018

我是三宝队😉😎

我喜欢拍照。。。
也喜欢拍摄三宝。。。
拍僧宝时多数是在他们不经意时。。。
今日在净土班公园郊游时所摄😉😘
友人问你偷拍? 这 好像有点贬词好像狗仔队?
不。。。
我看被拍的人物是宝而被
拍摄的人物如是宝也会视众生是宝,
所以我是三宝队!😀😄

(如典故: 苏东坡与佛印法师😉
就好像苏东坡跟佛印法师的对话一样,那天苏东坡高兴地回来了,他妹妹问他:“哥哥你今天为什么高兴啊?”他说:“我今天总算胜了佛印禅师了。”
她说:“你怎么胜的?”佛印禅师跟他有一段对话,苏东坡问佛印禅师说:“你看我像什么?”
佛印禅师说:“我看你像佛”。佛印禅师反过来问他:“你看我像什么呢?”
那苏东坡就跟他说:“我看你像牛粪。”
结果佛印禅师就笑笑没有回答他,没有辩驳任何东西。他就觉得占了上风了,高兴得不得了,回去苏小妹问他,他就这样跟她说了。苏小妹一听她就反过来哈哈大笑,她说:“哥哥今天你败了,今天是你败了。
”为什么是我败了?佛看什么都是像佛,你的心像牛粪你看什么都像牛粪,苏东坡恍然大悟说:“是的是的。” 😘😎😘
源自: http://blog.sina.cn/dpool/blog/s/blog_769fb5f30102vleq.html)

嘻所以我是三宝队😉😄
最满意照片之二。。。

拍摄时都是带着诚敬心的🙏🙏🙏
我是三宝队😀🙏🙏🙏😁